Monthly Archives: July 2012

There are voices in the dead of night, a child screaming, “I am Gemini!” Oh, what are you, and why?

Over the course of the next two nights, I’ll be seeing Cursive, one of my favorite bands, twice. I am pretty freakin’ excited for this. Mostly because I just don’t get out too often these days, and there’s always something fun about seeing this particular band in concert (I’ve seen them 8 times, I think).

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By |July 27th, 2012|Personal|0 Comments

And now she whispers into the mirror, “I’m broken. Oh doctor, doctor, can you fix me, can you fix me?”

Lately, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m doing a poor job coping with everything around me. I’m drinking too much. I’m letting my emotions get the best of me. Worst of all, I’m taking it out on everyone around me.

I need calm. I need control. I need peace.

I am not at peace with […]

By |July 26th, 2012|Personal|0 Comments

But as for my days, I spend them waiting

Not really all that much to report. I’m excited and a bit nervous to be going to my first group meeting (I wouldn’t say it’s a support group, just a, well, I don’t know, it just sounds like a fun little group) of other trans girls tomorrow night. I guess the one thing that I’m […]

By |July 23rd, 2012|Personal|0 Comments

It’s these expressions I never give that keep me searching for a heart of gold; and I’m getting old.

Apparently, my work is “celebrating diversity” this week (or month… I’m not sure).

Yesterday, someone brought around a little laminated piece of paper to each employee and we had to write how we were diverse. Now, I can certainly think of one major way in which I’m diverse. However, I’m […]

By |July 19th, 2012|Personal|0 Comments

No, the doctors didn’t tell you that you were dying. They just collected their money and sent you on your way.

I just very recently gave Against Me!‘s “Searching For a Former Clarity” (from the album of the same name) another listen. It’s amazing how much I can relate to it these days.

In early 2010, I was hit with severe bouts of anxiety and panic attacks that […]

By |July 17th, 2012|Personal|0 Comments

Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that

So, here I am, starting up yet another blog. But I suppose this blog is different in one very important way: Rather than blog or write about media or music or politics or really anything external; I’m going to actually write about me. I’m using this as a bit of a journal of my change, […]

By |July 16th, 2012|Personal|0 Comments